really? i mean, really.

so yeah. life has been weird. i moved back to ohio with my six animals. in a penske truck. that was a slight pain in the ass, having four cats and two dogs in the cab with me. but i made it. i can now say ive driven cross country by myself. it was fun despite the pain in the ass.
i miss everyone in arizona. everyone ive worked with. even the people who i hated who i worked with i would tolerate again just to realize that i fucked up my life. again.

but i wont go into all that.

all i have to say now is that its a new start for me. again, i know. but i have four cats so ive got 36 lives to play with. okay 34 because once gavin had a rough time waking up from anesthesia when he donated blood and shawn spun kopurnikus around on the floor and made him super dizzy and i felt that bad for him that i consider it a life lost

so anyways.

ive applied for all sorts of jobs. been chillin with my best long lost friend, shawn. we've known of eachother forever but only have known eachother as 'grown ups' for a few weeks now and it is so weird that we are pretty much exactly the same. but so different at the same time. its hard to explain.

anywho.

i go through phases of typing. i am totally all about correct grammar but for some reason i wont type shit correctly sometimes. oh well.

i met shawn's friends, stinee, teri and craig. stinee and teri moreso and they are quite nifty ladies if i do say so myself and i cant wait to get to know them better. i need more friends and i feel very comfortable around them all because they dont judge. in arizona i was unable to be in a room with people ive known for years without my heart being in my throat and my mind racing, wondering what they were thinking about me even though in all reality they probably werent even thinking about me at all. especially considering that none of them gave a shit when i moved and they i was only paid back a miniscule portion of the money that i had leant them over the past year buying food for them and paying for little shit here and there and paying for cell phones and glass and tongue piercings and booze and stupid shit. my fault. which is why im back in ohio. i had no choice.

i am going to go back to school here in january. and i want to get back to writing on here. because its been too long. and i need to rant and get things out. so so so so so many things.